HAHA K IDK WHAT I JUST TYPED LAH I JUST FELT LIKE OMG SHIT, I HAVE TO TYPE THIS. LIKE REALLY, BADLY. JUST VENT EVERYTHING YOU KNOW. ENGLISH IS ATROCIOUS AND DETERIORATING BUT WHATEVER LAH. I have been speaking in broken english. I say eated. -.- when its suppose to be ate. I said goodly. -.- Omg im doomed. Holidays are such a suckaaaaaaa. Like what Am said, it strains your relationship with people, especially peers.~ Ive actually made a resolution for next year. The most important one is to be a good muslimah, really. Ive been not practicing like a muslimah lately. Defiance and all, I have to throw that away. Bitchy-ness and gossips, have to be eliminated like ASAP. I have to start concentrating and be focus. No more fooling around and all. I think i am adequate enough for next year. I have my bestf and my princesses, sis, 4E7, band, friends, teachers, family, I think Im ready though to face 2010. I do not need anything else, am thankful with what I have now. No more smses and calling out? Its okay, no problem mom. Ill survive without it, somehow. [: Its like 5am in the morning now, I cant go to sleep because 1001 things are crawling up in my mind. HOMEWORK IS STILL NOT COMPLETED OMG. I have to chiong all the way tmr no matter what! O: K I WATCHED EIFFEL...IM IN LOVE awwwww so cute sweet. K I wanna go pray and trying myself to sleep like for the next hour.~

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Ok i decided to strike out that whole chunk basically because Ive finally learnt that I have to possess patience in order to mould this relationship to be a beautiful one. My bestf says that I have to cherish (L) and treat him the way I want myself to be treated which is the truth. I can never run away from that fact. My section leader told me to take it easy, talk things out. My cousin told me to chill. -.- My aunt told me that I shouldnt take love as a game. Darn, I feel like shit already. Like damn shitty. Like this whole pile of shit is enshrouding me, making me vanish. Hell shit Im really sorry for everything. Sorry that Ive taken (L) away from people whom I actually love too. I FEEL SO BAD SO OMG LIKE DAMN BAAAAD LAH. ): But nvm, its not gonna stretch all the way to 2010. By 2010, im gonna be a happy girl, surrounded with the people whom I love. Just you wait and see! [: Enough of all the rollercoaster life that Ive been going through in 2009. 2010, damn smooth and peaceful and stress, duh, Os. -.- Ok im done.

OMG I LOVE MY SECOND FAMILY! (L) Holidays suck actually. Ok excluding Korea and Msia, the rest practically was dreadful. Boredom enshrouds me, seriously. I cant get my hands to start writing chemical equations or rewrite english sentences. I actually found out that I have tons of chem homework that has to be completed. Dayana was downright correct. THERE IS SERIOUSLY ALOT! ): And im like 1/100 done. Melvin Teo was appalled that I have not yet completed it. Oooops.

Msia was really interesting. Finally, no more of KL and boomz, CAMERON HIGHLANDS! I do not like the leisure there. Seriously, leisure there = farms and mother earth nature green. Landscape view, obviously captivating. BUT TO ENJOY IT, definite no. I aint a geog student so I really cant appreciate what my mom explained to me whatever about the landslide thing or about the soil erosion omg please. I just enjoy shopping at the markets located there. Giggling at strawberry shortcake things is my hobby! Theres like strawberry shortcake lingerie bags slippers socks bags so adorable! Mummy bought for me and sister a pair of bedroom slippers. It looks like hot pink ronald macdonald shoes from far as the strawberry is like protruding out from nowhere haha omg so cute. The most horrifying incident that I can clearly recall is the trip all the way up to the strawberry mountain farm!!!! IT WAS THE SHIT SCARY SHIT BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH SHIT STOMACH WINCING SHIT OMG EVERYTHING SO SHITTY! But it was a one of a hell experience that I can never forget. Imagine the absence of railings providing a sense of security and having a one way road only, cmon, it was so nerve-wrecking! There was this moment where there was a car coming down and there was my car going up so there was no way to move but drive slowly near the edge of the bloody mountain and I was biting my nails all the way, praying that death will not come tormenting me, taking my soul away. Thank god, god saved us from falling off that mountain and my car doesnt go boom boom boom. Darn it, Ill always end up posting a whole lot of chunk but its ok, its been like god knows how long since Ive blogged. Sunway mall was the bombz. Shopped like crazy bought like shoes and so many other trinkets! Bonding w my great grandmum was really interesting she gave me like 5 bucks to go spend it on sweets. How sweeeet is that?! I watched like Tiga Abdul there, luv and miss it. I listened to send it on and it reminds me of Dayana. I listened to already gone and it reminds me of Am. I listened to time for miracles and it reminds me of hehehehehe! I actually bonded w my little cousins! I was happy for that 5 days. Didnt knew that happiness would just end there.

I actually started studying when my babes/dudes left for overseas. Syimz left for Msia. Faisal left for Msia. Naufal left for Phuket. Syafiq left for Msia. MSIAAAAAAAAA~ -.- I started on E maths actually! I started studying for Ammonia and I wanted to continue my chem but my hands couldnt get functioning for that assignment. Prolly tmr Ill continue again. 2010 another new year. I have to be more family-oriented actually, like what my mom says. ACTUALLY I AM YOU KNOW ITS JUST THAT MY MOM DOESNT NOTICE IT! Hmph. My mom is taking my computer away, FOR REAL NOW. Handphone limited to 0 text messages, like what she told me. Calling only meant for family members. NO LIFE, I KNOW but for my own good so Im gonna embrace that life with open arms~

I miss Ameera Dayana Ayie Naufal Syafiq Amirul Syimz Zakiah Nabil Khairuzzaman Khalis Chun Meng Melvin Teo Clive Alifah Syazwani Filzah Syazana Syathirah Hamzi Shalihin Putra Izza Ji Won Soo Jin omg I miss my lovely ones! ): I actually caught up with Ameera on the phone, filling each other about our lives and what we have missed out. Amazing how just a phonecall can bring smiles and laughter for the both of us! heheheH OOOOH WE TALKED ABOUT LIKE ALOT OF THINGS! Luv youuuuuu. Currently chatting with Syafiq and Zulfarhan right now. Zulfarhan entertains me yay! Talking about age actually and marriage to smoking to jodoh omg its beeeeen decades since Ive talked to him! I am watching avatar tmr! Syimz told me its terrific, well, it better be! [:

Holidays has been like full of dramamaz. Korea was beyond amazing, I must say. Like what Am said, we practically bonded like whoosh you know. BOOMZ you know. We conquered like so many friendships. I mean I didnt expect myself to be like close with Esmeralda or Schvelle or Olive or even WEI LIAT! I didnt expect myself to be like close w the korean buddies! Amazing huh what these trips do to you? They make you go crazy they make you be brave to take up the most scariest roller coaster ever they make you take stupid photos they make you laugh at shalihin's fall for you. Omg pukimak and all, wonderful shitz. 3500 won hell yeah dolphin amazing! Unglam photos wow heat packs I can never forget them. Maybe if i have the time, ill post about korea. YEAH ITS LIKE TWO WEEKS ALR but who cares? Relive back the memories!

Coming back to singapore was relieving actually. I got to savour my grandmum's sambal goreng yummy! But I get back my old life again. Homeworks are still untouched. No more fantasy, back to reality actually. Os are like freakin next year. malay O results are like in Jan. God knows how terrified I am. I dont think I can be commited to anything else for next year except for my Os and band of course. Its heart-throbbing but yeah it has to be that way. Its much easier. Watched gossip girls amazing CC! New moon is really disappointing esp the ending. Oh god I miss korea's weather! ):

AND I FREAKIN MISS KOREA'S WEATHER! Im gonna post about every single thing that happened, prolly at my livejournal. Blogger will be for pics, i suppose. Or either or. [:

OMG HIII ITS BEEN DECADES SINCE IVE BLOGGED IN HERE YOU KNOW WHY BECAUSE BLOGGER IS A BITCHZX AND I DONT LIKE IT THATS WHY I PREFER LIVEJOURNAL TO A LARGER EXTENT AND HELL SHIT, ITS WAAAAAAAAAAY BETTER THEN BLOGGER BUT THEN SOMETHING LIKE TOLD ME TO BLOG BACK IN HERE AND I THINK ITS MY INSTINCT I MEAN CMON, WE HAVE TO LISTEN TO OUR INSTINCT RIGHT SO HERE I AM, BLOGGING HERE, IN THE COMPUTER LAB IN TP WITH ALL THE GUYS SHOUTING AT EACH OTHER OVER SOME GAME OMG SUCH AN ENVIRONMENT.~

Ok hahahahhaha life has been really good to me, somehow. USTAZAH said that never said that life is unfair for you will meet unfair people. So i can somehow say that life has been rather good. I mean yes, ups and downs here and there but what to do? Accept them with patience and hence, overcome it. Results have been really bad, but thank god, it was better then mid-year. Tuition teacher said, the only thing that matters now is your Os and nothing else. December hols are reserved for revising through sec 3 topics so that my foundation is stable. Nov hols are already fully booked omg w bridging SPA Os omg and KOREA OMGZX~ I am really excited for all of them. Oh shit i totally forgot about malay Os. It like slipped through my mind for that split second haha oops. Im really freaked out for SPA Os no idea why. Prolly because idk if Im really prepared for it. I mean seriously, ive been doing my SPA by asking help from Carrie and all! ): And boomz, now its Os. Ok I miz Am Dayana Syazana Syathirah Naz~ Seriously. Miss my princesses so much!!!! Its gonna be like 9 days till i see them! Oh yes i saw syazana just now at the bus stop! O:

Ok ill edit this post later, when I come back from TP. I wanna post something emotional, so the environment must be right. I need the sound effects to enlighten my mood so that I can express my feelings into this blog with 110% EMOTIONS you know~ Get me get me? Ok good. Watched alot of movies lately. Amazing, seriously. UP was great and funny. Kungfu panda was humurous, as usual. The boy in the striped pajamas was extremely good, seriously! Hehehehhehe ok chaoz, later gonna update! [:

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2009 has really been an eye opener to me, to accept things the way they are, to adapt to drastic changes, to not be naive, to not be gullible, to realise that studying last minute aint gonna get you anywhere, to be strong and mostly, to know who my true friends really are. Cousin says sec 3, youre really gonna know who you really are. Aunty says, youre gonna know the few friends who stay by your side when youre in trouble. Father says sec 3, youre gonna study hard to get into university. Mother says sec 3, youre gonna be exposed to all sorts of things be it love, friends, people whatever. Sister says in sec 3, youre gonna meet ^^ omg -.- (Am and dayana should know who) Grandma says in sec 3, go target a guy! O: CUTE RIGHT. Oh well, what they say its definitely true. I dont regret being in 3E7 at all because seriously, this class has ultimate class spirit. Although we do not express our love to one another that much, we do it through our actions. Teachers as well. Be it helping each other in our work, be it helping each other by cleaning the classroom cleaning, standing up for each other, playing uno stacko, playing murderer, joking around with racist jokes omg i luv 3E7 so much. Damn bonded, seriously. Bandmates, I have nothing to say about them. They are definitely the best. (KITA KITA JE) Farhan Wanie Azri Hidayah being like the oldest, seniors leading us wow I luv you all! Hari raya outing was just the best hari raya ever, seriously. Like one whole big family you know. And then there she is, not forgetting my princess who sits beside me in class. 1001 things to say, just one thing to state here. Luv her to bits and pieces~ People come and go, seriously. And i have to agree with that but there will be a small group who will definitely stay, guiding you through your life, being there by your side. Yay done my emotional speech. Its not that emotional though actually. Emotional much will be on livejournal because I can place it under private or for friends only hyehye *evil laugh*

Ok im done editing im still stuck at TP here not bad actually. The lectures are really dull but thank god the lecturer makes it fun.~ Aliah and adibah hahahahhaa so cute omg. We are like the poly students wannabe~ OH YES ME RACHEL ALIAH went all the way to pasir ris and back to tampines because 15 brought us here. How unlucky is that? ): Nvm experience~ Ok FAR FRR EER threshold here we come! :/

Was just browsing through pics and came across this! Effing cute right? *squeals* Omg i miss korea hosting. Miss my abg long kak ngah abg ngah busu hahahaha. Cutting down posts for blogger, switching to livejournal for a change. Do visit aforathira.livejournal.com k!